it's CASS (bambamtc) wrote,
it's CASS

Aug.8, 2005 - Mar. 26, 2008

Today I lost the love of my life.
Over stupid reasons, and tears.
I've been praying and asking for some sort of sign, or guidance.
Twice in the last week a poster with our names on it in my room has fallen twice.
It's never fallen before.
I feel so strongly that as bad as this hurts, we need time to grow.
I've never cared so much about somebody, or wanted them to succeed more.
He made me feel self-less.
I made myself feel selfish.

I feel like throwing up. Screaming, crying, laughing, smiling.
I don't know which end is up.
I never thought I would be in this situation with him.
I hope he has the strength to better himself instead of being with someone else.
I'm sorry if you ever read this, and it's too personal. I'm sorry. I love you unconditionally.

I need healing.
I need hope.
I need love.

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